Wednesday, October 7, 2009

I replied

to the Blogfrog thread.

I did not link my blog.
I don't have the energy right now to fend stupid comments right now.

Note to Cindy

Thanks for your comment (please see previous post and the comment section).

I will post on Blogfrog to the hollier-than-now-pain-in-my-ass parents who have never been there, done that, still have the tear stains to prove it.

Just can't do it today.

Seriously, can't do it today. Maybe later tonight. Right now, though...I can't.

My heart hurts to friggin much. My tear stains are to deep.

There's a reason for it. One that I don't feel 100% comfortable placing on my blog right now. Maybe later when I can gather my thoughts and put them in a sensible manner.

Regardless, Corry, his momma, Ms. N and her momma...could use some prayers.

Thursday, October 1, 2009

Humbling? Hell NO

This morning on the Today Show there was a segment re: a family who disrupted after 18 months of having their baby w/them.

I will not judge this family. I will in no way say "yes they did the right thing or no they did not". I have not walked in their shoes 100% and I can not say what was right for their situation.

What I can say is that THIS article by Natalie Morales was rather upsetting to me. S'rsly...there is nothing humbling about this experience. As a mother of 2 biological children, 1 adopted, and currently 1 foster child....there is not an ounce of what going threw a disruption is like that can be compared to comparing your "everyday parenting mother" to a "mother who disrupts".

There is not a day that goes by that my heart does not ache for my son.
There is not a day that goes by that I don't fight back tears.
There is not a day that goes by that I don't look at our 5 yr old and think how heartbroken her mommy is.
There is not a day that goes by that I don't look at my family and think "Damn things shouldn't have turned out this way."
There is not a day that goes by....

It wasn't humbling.
It was heartbreaking.