Our state has a website to view current and past court preceedings/charges of individuals. If you get a speeding ticket - it will be on there. If you file bankruptcy - sometimes it will be on there. If you foreclose on your house - it will be on there. If you are arrested for battery, strangulation, bail jumping, and other bullshit....it will be on there.
Few weeks ago I looked up C. Honestly, I was shocked when I saw his name come up with actual charges. He is not 18. It broke my heart to see 2 counts of disorderly conduct. I knew he was being charged with it. However, I wasn't prepared for it. Does that make any sense?
This evening, because I'm struggling in a rather raw way, I checked to see what the
newest charges were and if I would be able to get an idea if C was still in jail or not. Again, I
was not prepared for what I read. I needed to read he was still in jail. I did not need to read "bail jumping". Dear Lord he is ONLY 17...bail jumping.
This is what I found: (Name, address, birthdate and such have been removed)
Charge(s)
| Count No. | Statute | Description | Severity | Disposition |
| 1 | 940.19(1) | Battery | Misd. A | |
| 2 | 940.19(1) | Battery | Misd. A | |
| 3 | 943.01(1) | Criminal Damage to Property | Misd. A | |
| 4 | 946.49(1)(a) | Bail Jumping-Misdemeanor | Misd. A | |
| 5 | 946.49(1)(a) | Bail Jumping-Misdemeanor | Misd. A | |
| 6 | 940.235(1) | Strangulation and Suffocation | Felony H | |
| 7 | 940.44(1) | Intimidate Victim/Dissuade Reporting | Misd. A |
and then all I could do was say:
and....
......I started a VERY HOT tub of water. Because the hot water somehow...numbs the pain. It was my coping mechnism when C was home. And still is.
