Court Records

Our state has a website to view current and past court preceedings/charges of individuals.  If you get a speeding ticket - it will be on there.  If you file bankruptcy - sometimes it will be on there.  If you foreclose on your house - it will be on there.  If you are arrested for battery, strangulation, bail jumping, and other bullshit....it will be on there.

Few weeks ago I looked up C. Honestly, I was shocked when I saw his name come up with actual charges.  He is not 18.  It broke my heart to see 2 counts of disorderly conduct.  I knew he was being charged with it.  However, I wasn't prepared for it.  Does that make any sense?

This evening, because I'm struggling in a rather raw way, I checked to see what the newest charges were and if I would be able to get an idea if C was still in jail or not.  Again, I was not prepared for what I read.  I needed to read he was still in jail.  I did not need to read "bail jumping".  Dear Lord he is ONLY 17...bail jumping. 

This is what I found:  (Name, address, birthdate and such have been removed)

Charge(s)

Count No.	Statute	Description	Severity	Disposition
1	940.19(1)	Battery	Misd. A
2	940.19(1)	Battery	Misd. A
3	943.01(1)	Criminal Damage to Property	Misd. A
4	946.49(1)(a)	Bail Jumping-Misdemeanor	Misd. A
5	946.49(1)(a)	Bail Jumping-Misdemeanor	Misd. A
6	940.235(1)	Strangulation and Suffocation	Felony H
7	940.44(1)	Intimidate Victim/Dissuade Reporting	Misd. A

and then all I could do was say:

and....

......I started a VERY HOT tub of water.  Because the hot water somehow...numbs the pain.  It was my coping mechnism when C was home.  And still is.