It has been an incredible hard few days. I keep track as much as I can on C's and his whereabouts (as in where he is living) as much as I can. Few days ago finding out that he graduated from high school was much tougher than I expected and it was a year early.
There are many reasons why this is tough. I blogged on another blog about it. The anger, frustration, and grief came spilling out in a rather not so good manner.
It was suggested that I should be proud of him. I know that my comments and thoughts didn't come across as being proud. I am extremely proud of him. However, I can not take responsibility for it. If I (or we) had such a positive influence on his life, things would have not turned out the way they did.
I have so much more I want to say. However, I really don't know that I want to on here. Even though, I don't blog as often the blog stats still show regular readers. I've contemplated closing this blog or just ending it with a final post. I've btdt many times. I'm really not sure what I want and in the meantime I will just leave it the way it is.