|Cocoa Beach, FL|
Hell, I don't even know when the tears will stop falling.
I've started this blog post over and over and over again over the last hour or so.
I guess looking at the photo header "You Are Not Alone" is what I need to do. Becuase right now, in my marriage...in my home...in my life as a whole....I am very much alone. And that knife that has been jabbed into my heart so many times over the last 12 years just got a bit deeper. Twisted a bit more and a bit deeper.
Someone please tell me again...Why in the hell did I ever want to adopt? Why did I ever agree to adopt? Why? Seriously! Because something that I truly thought was sooooo very much what the Lord wanted us to do...has turned out to be so damn horrific and painful. And continues to be a mess on my marriage.