Saturday, March 26, 2011

These are the days....

and weeks....
and months......


and....and...and......


I just want to go to bed. 
Set the alarm back about 12-13 years.

and....and....and.......

take a do-over.

Walk the steps differently.
Believe differently.
Trust differently.

I would do it.

I'm going to bed.
Going to set my alarm ahead  so that I remember to wake up and go to work.
And pray that somehow....

tomorrow....
the next day.....
the next week....
the next month.....
or even the next life.....

There will be closure.

....PS: I have VERY little faith that will happen.  But hell it is worth the try, right?

3 comments:

GB's Mom said...

That kind of healing takes a long time. I love the strength I see in you- how you keeping going on no matter how crazy you feel. You are not crazy and never were. This shit hurts. {{{Hugs}}}

Barb G said...

It takes a great capacity to love, to hurt as deeply as you do. (((hugs))) I'm sorry, my friend.

25YearsToLife said...

So true....love is not enough