Sunday, November 30, 2008

There it was....

in a box....
in a bag....

with his name on it....

Nothing like taking away the moment.....
Nothing like taking away the holiday spirit as you decorate...

than to find a stocking that you thought you had sent the social worker....oh...like 2 yrs ago....

Only to find it 2 yrs later...

My heart truly sunk this evening as I was getting a few of the Christmas decorations out.  Looking in some boxes in the basement, preparing to bring them upstairs, finding Cor's stocking.

I stood there for a second.  Speechless - VERY speechless.  I said "I could have sworn I sent this to him...." I said it over and over.  My dh than said 'no you said you were not sending hiim anything. that it was your stuff. not his baby pictures. not his stocking. not his anything" (jerk).  I reminded him that I DID SEND his stocking to him.  I then realized it was a 'different' stocking. Not sure when/where it came from.  However, it wasn't the one that matched the rest from Lands End stockings that we have.  In the same bag was Ab's First Christmas stocking.

It just took away my gusto.  I have not wanted to decorate.  I've not wanted to get out the stockings because our P.E.A.C.E. stocking holder hasn't been replaced to fit a family of 4 instead of a family of 5 like we once were.

gmg

1 comment:

Brenda said...

I am so sorry you are hurting today (((hugs)) Go get the new stocking holder. You deserve to be happy. You are a good person and a good mom.