There were many good days. There were many weeks that were good. We had many memoriable moments that were not all bad. Many of those moments were good.
As I think about our time as a family these good moments make it easier to get through the rough days. These good days make it just as tough to get through the tough days - because the guilt really bothers me. The "what ifs" really bother me.
I want to make it clear that there were good days and this is all that I have to hold on to right now. Those good days help me get through the bad days that I am having now.
As I can and think about it I will try to add in the good moments.